There is this thing that happens. This thing thats happens about once a year. It begins in september, maybe october, and continues through to december. It has to do with a very important day in my life, its called: "my birthday."
Being mildly narsisitic, as most of my generation is, or being what I may better perfer to term as "healthfully self aware," My birthday to me is more or less my favorite national holiday. If, it were infact able to be called such. The reality is that my birthday actually competes with a national holiday, making pumpkin pie something that makes my brain shout, "birthday!" and i somehow feel that large parades and buffs-cornhusker football games are in my honer. I am not sure if it is the competition, or if it is simply the "(ice cream) Castle in the sky" mentality of this little dreamer, But to me BIRTHDAY is a big deal. A very big deal. It is infact, enough of a big deal that i don't have my birthdate posted on my facebook profile. I dont' want a bunch of well meaning oneliners on my wall from people who cant remeber what month my birthday is in without having their facebook calender tell them. I don't want a bunch of "Hey happy birthday, but i don't have time to write you anything else"s. Its not that im a hater, its just that probably, i won't be "moved" by these things. I want a card, telling me what you see in me, or a phone call. I want something that will move me, inspire me, bring out the whimsical girl in me. Something to dress up for. Something to calm down for. I want a surprise. I want to know that i am wanted, noticed, appreciated. Inspiring, Challenging, Admired. If you birthday me, i want to know its not because something popped up on your screen, and you were like, "oh, duh, its mary's birthday yo." This is my birthday mentality.
So because I have such Chocolate pie in the sky ideas, every year, come september or October, I find myself in a place, a very healthy place. A place where i am re-evaluating my life, the people who speak into my life, and the people whose lives i speak into. I find myself asking God who should be key players in my life, and just in season i start drafting my very own football team, so to speak. But beyond just "drafting my team" I also start writing out my play book and making my plans for this years season... the "two a days" the team spirit, the "superbowl." all i need is to get some superbowl sponsers, and i will be good to go.
So here i am, pondering, What does the Lord have for me this year? Where are we going lord, what are we doing. Who is going to be involved? And who is going to win this year... The buffs or the cornhuskers?
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